Euphoric enlightenment from infidelity?
Some time ago, I experienced infidelity in my relationship at the time and being the conscious aware person that I am I could easily see my thoughts and how they created emotions and how I in this moment at first was loving and considerate and then how an internal battle with my ego self/3D self and my 5D self was taking place.
The internal dialogue went something like this:
“This is something to be really really upset about!”
“But I can see above that, I can hold him in his pain, shall I not do that instead? Do I have to react?”
“Society expects you too!”
“But I can see how this is the resolution to my karmic cycle around those previous events! I am so happy!”
“No you are NOT, You are supposed to be ANGRY right now, he did this to you!!!”
...and I chose to get involved in yelling and screaming and man did it feel good. For a short while. Consciously I didn’t want to suppress anything and really wanted to get it out. Whatever needed to get out. Emotions to be expressed. So I expressed them but quite quickly came back to love because I deeply understood and knew that it not his true self who did this, it is his illusion of self who did
(as we do live an illusion and I see the hologram every day!)
and it was not my true self who wanted to feel, it was my illusion of self who needed to be fueled by negative emotions a little to still stay in existence.
After realizing how his actions actually HELP my karmic release I could easily forgive him and truly FEEL how he was a part of me, reflecting a part of my karmic story back to me, that I have felt for a very long time of not being loved, and now I got the opportunity to LOVE myself and him through this experience.
I was EUPHORIC one day after this crushing news.
Euphoric and in bliss.
This is the power of enlightening inner work and forgiveness. #Iforgive